That moment when you realize all your thoughts and daydreams are about the same person. When you truly realize you've somehow developed a feeling you had no intention of having for someone. What do I do? I'll just sit here, bask in the sunshine…and think about you some more.
When I say I had no intention of feeling for you, I don't mean you weren't worth feeling for. This ache in my heart and my stomach wasn't something I wanted. Wasn't something I needed right now in my life. You…you're great. Kind, caring, strong and sweet…everything I could want. All I could hope for or need. But it's not the right time, and I think deep inside we both know that. You're so far away, I'm here and you are there with oceans between us. Try as I might to stop thinking about you, I simply cannot…so we shall see what happens. Maybe it will become something and maybe it will not. For now, I'll just soak up the sun and let my imagination run wild. Daydreams, fantasies…whatever they may be. For now, its just you and me.
Al vulo!- Polly* natural cacoa
.ID. Shine Eyes – Deep Gray
/Wasabi Pills/ Teeloh – Royal *MESH*
L.Fauna Lashes [Fluffy]
L.Fauna Dimples [Tan]
:[P]: Plastik – Sulyien://S-Anima *MESH*
: Amorous : Triptych Bluesilver (Necklace) Group Gift/New Release
(CM) Cracked Mirror Bootcut Jeans (black) XXSmall *MESH*
NSA (No Strings Attached) – Whimsy Pose
Photo taken @ Crossing Currents
My very first crush was a guy named Joey. I was 12 and he was 20 years old. He was tall, with dark hair and eyes and had one of the most beautiful smiles I've ever seen on a man. Joe was always totally sweet to me, and being that he was older but not like parental older we had a lot of fun together. I'm sure he knew I crushed on him, I'm not entirely good at keeping feelings like that under the radar. Well, the thing about Joey was he always talked about how he wanted to make a difference. He would tell me about how his parents struggled to learn English when they decided to come to the states from Puerto Rico and it reminded me of my father. How they worked hard every day of their lives just to make a decent life for themselves and their family. They learned English, held steady jobs for many years and had a home in PA after awhile. Joey was inspired by them so much so, and loved this country for the opportunity it gave his family and the life they were able to make for themselves. One day, he sat me down and told me he loved me. That I was very important to him, and he told me all these stories and philosophies in his head because he knew I listened and felt that even though I was young…that I understood what he was trying to help me understand about life. Then he held me tight, and while he did so he told me he was leaving. He had realized what he needed to do to say thank you to this country for everything it had done in his life…was to enlist in the Army. This was round about 1991 and what I didn't fully comprehend at that time, was that there was a war going on and he was about to put himself in the midst of it. I cried simply because he was leaving, because he didn't know when he would be back…and because while he was speaking he seemed so serious, it was a bit haunting. Like he knew I would one day be devastated that I'd never see him again. And one day I was…horribly devastated that his sister came to see me to tell me and give me a letter he left for me with a picture of us from a trip up to the city from a couple years prior. She told me he kept that picture with him during boot camp and when he was deployed. That he had all my drawings and chicken scratch letters I sent him when my mom would ask if I had things to send to Joe. I was angry at the world for losing him…but now as an adult, even though I'm tearing up I understand who he was and why things happened. I will always love him, and miss him. I will also never forget him or how hard he fought for what he believed in.
I have great respect and admiration for everyone that has ever served in the military in any fashion. To believe that much in something is a really beautiful thing to me, and to lay even your own life on the line to protect it…to protect us, is just amazing to me.&n (Read more…) My older brother was in the Marines, my little brother is hoping to enlist in the Army and my son's father was in the Navy. The reason I tell this story is because its important to remember these people, people just like you and I with families and friends that fight for all of us. The freedoms we have in this country are kept intact from the blood, sweat and tears of these incredible people. I have a new friend, Mr. Criss who is also an Army man and I wanted him in this photo because I do admire what he has done, how passionate he is about being a proud American and how he has served our country. I hope he knows that, and if he didn't now he does. Thank you, B…Thank you, Joe…Thank you to my brothers and everyone's brothers and sisters, sons and daughters all over the world. ♥
Al Vulo!- Polly- Natural Cacoa
.ID. Shine Eyes – Dark Green
[e] Garden – Black 04
Vestigium – Zodiac [libra]
[NSD] Rufus Cap/ Black RARE [Former Gacha Item]
[MANDALA]SHAMIRA DOG TAG necklace/Black
W&B Enough of That Ring OLIVE
:::insanya::: StreetArmy/Black Top
TonkTastic – Paratrooper Fatigues [Olive]
[Gos] GTFO Boot – Army
(CM) We Salute You Poses [TOSL Item this weekend 50L]
It's been awhile since I've known what I want to say so I could make a blog. It amazes me, usually I'm not so much at a loss for words in one way or another. I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things, so I thought I'd use my blog to help me express them. I like mesh, in fact I love it at times. The thing I tend to get a little sad faced about mesh is that I lose my curves when I wear it. My shape is very…RL-centric. I am built in a way that my hips and ass are very noticeable and so is my avi. So, when I only fit into Small or XS because I'm also short…I don't expect to lose my shape but I do. A lot of mesh is made with very little curve to it, and some people are built like that for sure. But I'm not, and I LIKE having a curvy body. I don't want to hide it! So…when I find something that is mesh and still accentuates what I like about my shape then I'm excited.
This skirt is my new favorite thing. My Attic is a great event, and these skirts being there made me slightly giddy with booty glee. Keep in mind, that's not actually how big my toosh is, its bigger. But just the fact that there's something there is happiness to me right now. The picture…well, I was thinkin in my head all the cat calls and whatnot I used to get when I was younger and walking around back home and started just writing things on the wall lol. I'm random, what can I say?
Savoir Faire Shapes ~ Jessica (mod'd)
[Al Vulo!] – Polly* natural cacoa
.ID. Shine Eyes – Deep Gray
>TRUTH< Tammy – espresso
L.Fauna Lashes [Fluffy]
L.Fauna Dimples [Tan]
.:CoLL:. The Warrior's Way ~ Back Tattoo
(CM) Colored Pencil Skirt MESH (Smoldering) S & (Romance) S
FuLo – "Black Tie" earrings – Black Opal & Diamond
Bounce This Poses – Vanity Pose Pack
I was initially naked. I admit this only because I thought it'd be a really fun picture to do and show off all the amazing meshy goodies I have to show. Alas, the longer I looked at it the more I felt I needed to cover my bits up lol. So, I ended up putting a bra on and choosing a pose that kept my lady parts covered up. This amazing necklace and earring set comes in several colors as well as a pack full of variety. I've seen it on blogs worn casual and also very fancified so its clearly versatile and what I like most is that it's different. Its not an overly complicated design but still works with many different styles while still looking fresh and new.
The creators of [HANDverk] are a team, and also create furniture. For the launch of FaMESHed they released not only the jewelry sets but this couch and clock as well. This couch reminds me of Austin Powers movies…not gonna lie. Its so retro to me, and I initially as I mentioned earlier…had planned to be sprawled across it buck naked. Oh well, maybe next time! For now, you're going to want to high tail it to FaMESHed before the May cycle is over! There's about a week to grab everything you took home to demo and forgot to run back and buy. A week to fall in love with new mesh and take it home with you. I personally can't wait for next month. Who knows who'll be there and what they are going to have for us all!?
Savoir Faire Shapes ~ Jessica (mod'd)
al vulo!- Polly* natural cacoa
.ID. Shine Eyes – Deep Gray
[e] Listen – Black 04 *MESH*
..::MAI::.. Gift Black Nails
L.Fauna Lashes [Fluffy]
L.Fauna Dimples [Tan]
::HH:: Hucci Strapless Bra – Black
[HANDverk]Fan Earring.silver/black. *FaMESHed Item*
[HANDverk]Fan Necklace.silver/black. *FaMESHed Item*
[HANDverk]Sunburst Clock.multicolor *FaMESHed Item*
HANDverk Marshmallow Sofa multicolor *FaMESHed Item*
FaMESHed Landmark
